Usually I do not talk about this but I have to vent…
Today was an unusual day. As I was sitting on the bus on my way to work, I did not feel well. I felt like I lost all of my emotion. I could not even smile like I usually do. When I clocked to start working, one of my co-workers immediately asked me “What’s wrong?” I lied and said nothing was wrong. That’s just how my face look. He did not buy it.
Usually I’m good at hiding my emotions and look like a normal guy just living another day. However, today was not a good day and I showed it. Woman from Starbucks asked me the same question. I was thinking to myself, am I showing my emotions? Usually I lie because I don’t want people to know about my depression. Depression sucks as hell. Everyday is different. But today was very strange.
I know I can talk to someone but I personally rather talk to someone I know, than a complete stranger. It’s hard talking to my dad because he doesn’t believe in it and the rest of my family think the same. I only talk to my cousin because she’s the only one who gets it and don’t judge me.
One of the ways to keep myself occupy and happy is to posting art stuff on tumblr and drawing. That will keep me going :)